Tomorrow night, I will be going for graduation night. I'm not really looking forward to it. It seems as though it is just another ordinary day to me. I'm not particularly excited about it, other than being able to wear the new shirt that my father just bought for me two days ago.

I am tired. I can hardly get enough sleep before I have to wake up and go to school. I still prefer this kind of life as compared to the kind where I can sleep till I can no longer sleep, and then crack my brains to find something to do so that I can kill time. That life is boring. Very boring. At least I am learning things every day, and I am teaching people. Maybe I'll end up being a teacher, since I find teaching quite meaningful.

I might not update tomorrow as I might not be coming home tomorrow night.

Tomorrow night, I will be going for graduation night. I'm not really looking forward to it. It seems as though it is just another ordinary day to me. I'm not particularly excited about it, other than being able to wear the new shirt that my father just bought for me two days ago.

I am tired. I can hardly get enough sleep before I have to wake up and go to school. I still prefer this kind of life as compared to the kind where I can sleep till I can no longer sleep, and then crack my brains to find something to do so that I can kill time. That life is boring. Very boring. At least I am learning things every day, and I am teaching people. Maybe I'll end up being a teacher, since I find teaching quite meaningful.

I might not update tomorrow as I might not be coming home tomorrow night.

I think my stamina is going down. I only played for around an hour today and I felt as if I had played for 4 whole hours. Maybe I should take a break.

I am really too tired to think of what else to write in here for today. I'll update tomorrow.

Today is a tiring day for me. I woke up way before my alarm sounded and got ready to go for band practice. Band practice was short. Only about an hour and a half before we started to play some games. I have a poor memory, and that can be proven. I couldn't remember the names and faces of more than two-thirds of the people there.

After the games I went for section lunch with the clarinet section. It was meant to be a junior-treat-senior lunch, but then the other 3 sec 4s couldn't make it so they ended up treating me to KFC. We spent more than 2 hours there I suppose. After eating we played some number guessing game, concentration and a weird finger game that I cannot remember what it is called. I really miss the unity in AH Band. The last time there was a section meal was when I was in sec 2. The rest of the time, section meals consists only of less than 5 people which is so pathetic.

I wanted to go to Singapore Shopping Centre to buy some reeds from The Band World but decided that it might be closed and did not go there. Instead, my parents wanted to go to Raffles City to look at some stuff. We did not go there because the carpark was full and they sealed off all the carpark enterances. We ended up in Bugis Junction at around 9pm and I decided to look for something to wear to graduation night. After looking through whatever there was, I had found nothing. It was already almost closing time when I decided to try my luck outside Seiyu. I was so lucky to have found a shop and walk into it, and my sister spotting a nice shirt. The shirt is expensive and I was pleasantly surprised that my father actually bought it for me. I am so happy.

That's about it for today. There will be alumni band practice tomorrow afternoon. I think it will take up the whole day.

I must thank Wei Theng for accompanying me all the way to Temasek JC to register for PAE. I am feel so bad that I have actually wasted a lot of his time because I realised after registeration was over, that I did not sign on the application form. Isn't this as good as not submitting the form at all? Furthermore, I went through all the trouble of going all the way to Anglican High to collect the MEP application form yesterday morning before going to VJC to realise that I did not have the necessary documents with me and I had to hand in the form at TJC, and even spending a dollar on photocopying all the relevant documents required for the application.

I wonder whether my brain is still functioning properly or not. For the past few days, especially yesterday, I have been mistaking people whom I have never met before for people I know. This is real bad. I also realise that I have forgotten a lot of things that I am supposed to remember.

Anyway, I'm feeling much better today, although much more tired. I will try to rest earlier.

MOE is so inefficient. I just cannot believe that I had to rush to school early this morning to get the form to apply for MEP and end up not being able to submit my form A because almost nobody knows what I should do. The instructions given were not clear enough either. Now, I have to wait till tomorrow morning to call the person in charge of it to find out what I should do and where I should submit my form A and the MEP application form.

I have no mood to continue updating. I am not in the best of moods this week.

I felt so bad when I was unable to answer at least 7 calls or so made by the teacher-in-charge of VJ band because I was having band practice.

I want a break but yet I do not wish to be idle.

The auditions at Victoria JC today wasn't that tough. We were given a portion of El Camino Real to practice before the auditions. I did practice it before I was asked to play only the bass clarinet. If I had known, I would have just sticked to the B-flat because I think that I could have played better than most of the others. Anyway, no matter what happens, I will still have to play the bass clarinet for at least 1 more concert before the year ends. Hopefully I can get through the auditions. The results will only be out tomorrow.

I am beginning to like some parts of Iris, especially the 7th bar of presto and the oboe solo. Welcome also sounds nice. The saxaphone solo is so nice. I am really envious of the person who will get to play the solo. Anyway, it is just as nice to enjoy listening to the solo.

I think I am really bad to be using another person's internet access without permission but if they did not want it to happen, they should have put a firewall to their wireless router. I cannot help using theirs even though the signal is not very stable because the modem is hogged by my sister. Please forgive me.

I'll update again tomorrow.

I really miss playing bass clarinet. I will start practising tomorrow. I must get back my tone and all as soon as possible.

I'm just not in the mood to update.

The second thing I cannot believe is that I actually managed to wake up slightly before 7 am to go to Bedok Reservoir to jog. I ought to get some rest within the next few days before I fall sick. I've not had enough rest after yesterday's swim and I still compromised on my sleep to go jogging. I completed the reservoir in 25:20, a whole minute faster than what I took last week.

Finally there will be band practice tomorrow. I cannot wait to go back for band practice. Maybe I'll go back on my words after the holidays because I get tired of too many band practices. I hope I won't. Anyway, there's drills tomorrow morning.

I got so bored today that I decided to watch television. I watched the second half of the badminton open and found out that watching badminton was actually far from what I thought it was. I can remember that I used to switch the channels immediately upon seeing a badminton match being broadcasted on television. I think that the last game of the day was the most interesting one. The Danish player had lost the first match 3-15 and was trailing 3-9 in the second match but managed to transform the second match into 17-15 and go on winning the third 15-4. It is really unbelievable.

Maybe today is the "unbelievable" day, and yesterday was the "weird" day. Mervin was commenting non stop that everything was weird yesterday and how he got lost in Tuas. I cannot be bothered to type out the things he said. I'm getting a little lazy.

I think I'll stop here for today, and get some rest. I also better disconnect from the wireless network before the person finds out.

This morning I went swimming and found out that the weather seemed cooler than the water. I did around 24 laps of swimming. It wasn't as tiring as before, maybe because I have had some exercise last week. I am thinking of going to jog at the reservoir again tomorrow but I have no idea whether I would be able to wake up or not. It is already 1:40 am now and I'm still not planning to sleep soon.

There is a very irritating beetle that has been in my room for the past hour and I have no choice but to run out of my room. Luckily I am mobile and I can shift my computer to outside my room without having to turn it off and on again.

I went to City Harvest again today. Tingting was so late that we had to take a taxi down. It's the second time in two days I have taken a taxi and the fare exceeds 15 dollars.

Anyway, we went to Bugis after the service and wasted money on pictures again. I think I will try my best to stay away from Bugis Junction.

I think I'm more inclined to going to Victoria JC next year. I'll be going for the auditions for band on Tuesday.

I'll do a proper update tomorrow.

Before the end of the 'O' levels, I wanted to be at the end so I can play all I want and enjoy myself but now, I realise that there is nothing to play; all the movies that I wanted to watch, I do not really feel like watching anymore. The only thing that did not change is wanting to go for band practice again.

I'm not going to talk about any papers I suppose. Anyway it's all over and it is useless talking about it. Maybe I should plan my time properly and see what I can do for the rest of my holiday. I think I will end up spending as much time I spend sleeping in band.

The rain is spoling my desire to swim tomorrow morning. I think the water will be sort of cold and that does not seem appealing. I don't know where I can go and what I can do after that.

I'm still wondering which JC to go to. Haven't made up my mind yet.

I think I'll be working on a new layout and maybe consider changing a tagboard. Tag-board has been down for the past 3 days. I wonder if it is still reliable or not.

I am so glad that I am free now.

As if it is planned that I fall sick for every examination I take, I am beginning to get some nose irritation again. I hope that it won't worsen and I will not fall sick again, not at least for the remaining few papers or it will be the second time I fall sick this month.

I managed to rush through the chapter on Resources, Industries and Climatic Disasters today and I still have a lot more to go. That is, almost the whole of Physical Geography and the last few chapers of Physics.

So many things I want to do after the 'O' levels. The list of things I want to do will never end.

Maybe I should just stop dreaming and start studying before I regret and cannot enjoy doing the things I want to do.

I managed to complete, with great difficulty, the whole reservoir in 26:20. I guess I have not been exercising for too long already. My legs seem to have problems supporting my weight of my body even up till now. Anyway, I think it was quite amazing that I managed to complete the whole reservoir despite not doing any exercise for quite some time.

I tried studying after that but I ended up sleeping because I was too tired from sleeping at 1 am the previous night and waking up so early for the jog. I only revised two chapters of Geography later on and did nothing else but watch television. When you do not want to study, even the most boring of shows can become interesting.

I think I'll stop here for today.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!

I'll just try to insert a picture and hope that it will turn up.

I need to have some motivation to study.

Picture was taken on 11th September 2004 outside Colour By The Bay, Esplanade. From left to right: Phyllis, Hui Ling, Ting Ting, Wen Jia, Yu Jie, Torrance, Jun Han, Benedict, Amanda, Wen Yi, Ginny, Bao Ying, Shayne, Me.

The thought of having six papers squeezed into three days really scare me. How I wish I can escape from reality now. Geography paper 2 and Physics paper 1 and 2 on Wednesday, Additional Mathematics paper 2 on Thursday and Chemistry paper 1 and 2 on Friday. Maybe I should seek comfort in it, thinking that it will soon be all over, even before I have time to react.

This is somehow what I feel of the 'O' levels so far. I did not really prepare for it; I am not ready for it but it just gets thrown at me and forced onto me. I want another year to prepare. I want to just retake the whole examinations. I cannot forgive myself for making mistakes that are not supposed to be made.

I'm dead tired now. Maybe it's due to not being active enough over the past month. I think I really need to do more exercise before my fitness starts falling.

I don't know what I is going through my mind now. Can anyone listen?

I heard part of the first movement of Singapore Rhapsody. Some parts of it are expected, as in, by listening to one part, you will know what will come next but it's quite nice.

Anyway, I think I shall update another time. There is nothing in my mind for me to type out right now.