Monday, April 23, 2007
The thunder roars ever few seconds, the lightning strikes just as frequent but what I am yearning so badly to hear and see I can't. Rain will soon pelter down just like the nights I've been told about. When will everything be back to normal?
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
How I wish I will never have to write here again, and be able to throw all of this away.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
I suddenly do not feel right (don't try to be funny by asking me if I'm feeling left). This week seems to be exceptionally long and boring. There is nothing much to look forward to. I'm different from the majority and I do not want to be the same as them. I don't know why I am different but I prefer it this way. I want to go back to last year. I am sick and tired of this. I seem to get more sleep but I feel more tired than ever. I don't get much time to do the things I enjoy. I don't get to be where I want to be. The food is bad. The air is bad.
I don't feel like writing anymore.
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
I have a sudden urge to be deceived. I want to be deceived. Maybe you think that I mean I have the urge to deceive someone but expressed myself wongly. You are wrong. I want to be deceived, without knowing. I need sleep. I want dreams to come. I also want some dreams to come true. I am greedier than before. I want peace. I want music. And I want .
Monday, April 02, 2007
This week is going to be a rather crazy week where I have duties so close to each other that I don't know if I can adjust my biological clock fast enough to stay awake at the right times or not. It starts with night duty today, followed by a normal working day on Wednesday, followed by another night duty on Thursday. I think I will probably try to last through the four days and then get a ultra good rest on Friday since it's Good Friday. That applies to my meals as well. I think I can only afford to have irregular meals until Friday where I can eat all I want (on the condition that there is good food). I passed my second test last week but something went wrong and I could not get my results. I hope that I do not have to retake the test.
The life in Singapore is really too hectic. Everyone is so busy, apart from those serving National Service. Maybe even those people are busy too. What we all need is a long good break from studies and work so that we can enjoy and appreciate the things and people around us rather than just to worry about making money.
I hope there is world peace tonight.
