I met someone on my way up to my classroom this morning at the first level of the higher side of the classroom block. On my way up, I realised that there were quite a few insects which looked like bees on the stairs. It did not seem to bother me any bit. This is strange because I am bothered even by a moth resting on the wall. Maybe my brain is too tired that it has to save energy for more important things than that.

At least half the school was late for assembly today. Usually during examinations, there would be no assembly, or even if there was, it would be held in class. Today's assembly was held in the hall and many people, like me, who were unaware of it were late. I think they made it an exception not to start assembly on time and not to punish us because the number of late-comers was so great. I heard some funny announcement that there will be a cleaning session on Monday. I wonder what Mrs Goh means when she said that. When will the cleaning session be held? After school, during lessons? I hope that it will be after school because I will be leaving before school ends. I would rather do cleaning up than to take the mid-year paper for Music though.

Paper one started with the English language paper. I misinterpreted the question and I spent 50 minutes writing a composition that was out of point. After which, I did the situational writing and realised, only when I had 15 minutes left, that I had misinterpreted the question. The question was "National Service training should be made compulsory for all able-bodied Singaporeans between the ages of 18 and 21." I interpreted it with an extra "male" and wrote out of point. Luckily, when I was writing the composition, I was thinking of what I could write, and it I came out with a draft in my head of what was relevant to the actual topic, but irrelevant to my topic. It is quite ridiculous that I did not realise my mistake when I was writing "Currently, National Service training is compulsory for able-bodied male Singaporean between the ages of 18 and 21." I had thought that I shouldn't have written that because that of my interpretation, and that writing that would be repeating the question. Somehow, I don't feel very secure even after writing another composition. It was rushed out in 15 minutes and I am worried that it also does not answer fully to the question. There is more hope for the situational writing though, I managed to write quite a fair bit more than what I wrote for my composition. It was rather easy to write on as all the points were provided and the only thing I had to do was to elaborate on the points.

The Chinese paper was a little tougher. I did not quite understand the questions and I spent some time reading through the questions so that I can guess the rough meaning of the question, and what was required. I did the gong han and I think that it is too short to get me a good score. My composition was on a newspaper article on more and more maids being abused. I wrote slightly more than 2 pages on it and hopefully, all that I have written is relevant in answering the question.

After the papers, I went to Long John Silver's to eat. Only when I have boarded the bus to the interchange, I realised that I seem to have lost something because my hands were empty. After quite some time, I was able to identify the item that I have misplaced as my file. The first thing that came to my mind was that it must have dropped out of my hands when I chased up with my friends. Coming to think about it now, it is so illogical that anyone with brains would know that that would not have happened. After more thinking, I guessed that I have left it in the D&T workshop. I was right. Not long later, I suddenly remembered that I am going to have a Chinese test on Monday and all my Chinese books are in my locker. I even forgot to fill in the entry form for sports day or bring it to school today even though that was the only thing on my mind when I stepped out of school yesterday. Luckily Miss Lo allowed me to pass it to her on Monday. Somebody please remind me about it because I cannot afford to forget about it again. Just how forgetful have I become?

I have made up my mind to start studying from tomorrow onwards. The countdown to mid-year exams will start tomorrow. Right now, I want to put my mind at ease and sleep peacefully.

I will have to get this negative thought out of my mind if I want to do well. The fact is that I want to do well. I suppose that almost everyone has seen the powerpoint presentation about how powerful the subconscious mind is in controlling one's actions which affect the final results. I definitely have to believe that I can do it. Anyway, for all the past paper ones for every single examination, I have managed to finish writing within the time limit. Tomorrow shouldn't be much of a problem since I have had quite a lot of practices this year.

I had the Chinese listening comprehension today and it was quite tough. The answers were all so close to each other. Hopefully I have made the right choice and did well for the paper. I finally got back my Physics common test paper. I was quite surprised when I received my paper because just the night before the test, I was so tired that I did not even revise for it.

Today is also the first time this year I went home straight after school. I reached home only 35 minutes after I left school, and managed to spend most of the time on my computer before catching a short nap and going for my tuition lesson.

I did not do much in the lesson, only a composition in the 2 hours I spent there. I will have to halve the time I take to write a composition tomorrow. Hopefully this exercise will serve as a successful warm up for tomorrow.

I'm off for an early night. A gentle reminder to all to bring your Chinese dictionaries tomorrow morning. All the best for tomorrow's paper one.

I left school straight after second recess on Monday so that I could spend some time practising my examination pieces. I guess that leaving at 1.30pm was a little too early because my practical examination slot was at 4.20pm. Grace's slot was quite a bit earlier, at 2.50pm, so we were given permission to leave school at 1.30pm. The practice at the music room was not too good. I made such huge mistakes that I could not continue and had to start from another point in the music. There was totally no expressions nor dynamics, nothing much I could do about it since I did not even bother to practice those pieces more often during the period before the examination day.

We left school at around 2.15pm in a taxi and reached Dunman High at around 2.30pm. The schedule was shifted backwards due to some people who spent too much time playing their pieces and because of someone who requested to be put in front. There was enough time for Grace and me to practice on the still-usable piano at the concourse. I have to say that my best playing of the 2 examination pieces were played there. I have never played the pieces so well before. Anyway, that was not taken into account when I was graded for my playing. I entered the room only at 4.50pm. My playing was quite bad. Maybe because I wasn't used to the touch of the piano but what was more surprising was that I could make mistakes at the places where I do not usually make mistakes and I actually managed to play one part where I have never played correctly before without any mistake. Sometimes I just can't stand myself. After that, I went for tuition where I spent three and a half hours before going home.

That's enough of Monday. Yesterday wasn't a very good day either. There was this NAFA test and my class completed 3 items within 2 periods and we were still given 20 minutes of free time. It started off with sit-ups, then standing broad jump and pull-ups. I wonder why we had to start off with sit-ups. I always get stomach cramps after doing those. This time I was lucky not to get any cramps because I did not do as much as I could but I only did as much as what was required to get me an A. The jumping was the easiest and most relaxing of all. I managed to top the class with a 262cm jump. If my memory is not wrong, it is worse than my last year's jump. For pull-ups, I managed to tie with Vincent, and my last year's score with 13 pull-ups. I think I am beginning to become a little unfit after such a long time of not doing much exercise. All that sudden requirement of me to exert myself has resulted in me having aches all over my body today.

Nothing very significant happened today. Assembly was a total bore, with 9 people on stage 'entertaining' us with a Chinese debate. I could understand most of it, but I think what they were debating about was not on the topic, but rather on another topic they have created. I shouldn't be criticising too much since I can do no better than them. No CCA means more free time for me. I am trying to enjoy the freedom of the time I have but I still do not seem to have the time I expect to get. I went to tuition after school today and did some practice on Chemistry. I don't think that it really made a difference.

There is someone going about stealing handphones and MP3 players in school. I don't think it would be a good idea to bring my camera to school any more. At most I will have to tolerate copying down more notes.

It is about time I started revising for the 17-chapter Chemistry test I am going to sit for tomorrow, and the Music mid-year paper held on next Monday. I still do not have the luxury of time to relax.

I should be spending this time practising on my piano instead of typing on the computer keyboard. I have not touched my practical pieces for more than a week before this Saturday and I cannot even play at a speed close to the actual speed. To think that I can still spend so much time on the internet, going out, eating, playing my clarinet and doing nothing when the practical examination is tomorrow.

My phone is finally sent for repairs but it will be ready only 3 days later. Hopefully all the things stored in the phone will not be deleted or all my efforts in persuading my parents to pay for the repairs of my phone will be put to waste. The quote I was given for the repairs was between $50 - $100. I am praying that it will cost only $50 or I might get my head chopped off.

I will try to write about Friday and Saturday some other day, when I am free. As for now, I had better continue revising for the Chinese test or practice my practical pieces.

Tomorrow will be the last band gathering before I'm officially "reitred". I wonder if there is anybody who will realise that it would be the last time the sec 4s will be still part of AHband.

The tag board and comments box is dying.

I am now getting confused by just the order of the days. I am wondering if I am living in another world where the days run in a different order from Earth. Things seem so foreign to me and I can even recite another day's timetable and have totally no idea of today's timetable. This also reminds me that I have to bring my Social Studies workbook to school. I was supposed to bring it to school about a month ago but I have forgotten to do so time and time again. If I'm not going to bring it tomorrow, I think I will get into some serious trouble.

I got back my Mathematics test paper today. The score was kind of disappointing. 14/20, an A2. My grades are falling drastically. I am going to do something about it before the mid-year examinations.

We watched a debate today during assembly. I would choose not to elaborate on the debates because of a few reasons. One of the more important ones is that I hate some of the speakers up there. I'm not going to get angry and shorten my life because I am reminded of it.

Attendance at band room was pathetic. Not a single sec 3 turned up, and only 2 sec 2s turned up. The sec 1s seem to be the most promising for today. I don't believe that everyone is already busy preparing for the mid-year examinations.

The Chinese orals was rather smooth sailing. I got Wang lao shi as my tester. The only scary part is when she gave me one of those very wide smiles as she stared into my eyes. I wonder what she meant by that. Hopefully I will be able to get a good score for the orals. English orals will be held this Saturday. There will be a Mathematics common test on vectors and transformation on tomorrow that I might study for.

I'm feeling exhausted already. I will have an early night tonight. There is somthing that I want to write in here but I have fogotten what it is. I'm sorry about that.

Shocking news that a portion of the Nicoll Highway has collapsed greeted me as I boarded the bus home. At first I thought Golden Mile Centre was in some other country but it turned out to be Singapore. I shouldn't be bothered by this.

I want to play a Bb clarinet.

I guess I will have to spend less time here till after the 'O' Levels. By the way, I can no longer use my phone because the only thing I can do with it is to on and off it, and to check the time. I have no plans to send it for repairs because I don't have the financial ability to do so. I'll have to stick to my 3310 for now.

Last night, I experienced something very new to me. I was using the computer at around 11pm when I smelled some burning smell. Immediately, I identified it as the smell of haze. I intended to add a short entry in here although I was already very tired even before I have reached home but I decided not to after getting slight breathing difficulties that I suspected, was due to the haze. I then went into my room and lay down on my bed, hoping that my condition will get better, but it did not. My breathing was so short that I was afraid that I would not take in enough oxygen to keep myself alive, and that prevented me from sleeping because I supposed that my breathing would be even slower when I fell asleep. It was tempting to just fall asleep and just sleep forever because I was already very tired and it would be better if I could just end my suffering but upon thinking of the band, I realised that it would be very irresponsible for me just to die like that. I also did not want to die yet because there were some things that I did not have the chance to do.

I ended up waking my mother up and telling her about it. I took four dozes of the ventolin inhaler and stayed awake till around 1am before my breathing became slightly better. I unknowingly fell asleep after staring at my phone which was on the verge of getting spoilt. I then woke up at 8am this morning to find myself perfectly fine, and not even the slightest clue that I had shortness of breath last night.

Yesterday morning, I sat for a physics test that I have not studied for because I reached home only at 10.40pm on Friday. The test was rather do-able except for a few questions that needed explanation. After that, we had foot drills that started off with 50 push-ups. This is the first time I have done so many push-ups in one go. Mr Chua came only at around 10.30am and ran through Thunder and Blazes, The Merry Widow, Festival March and Xenia Sarda with us. There was a sec 3 meeting that lasted till 3.30pm. After that, Henry and I went to the food court at Tampines Mall to eat before going to the National Stadium to watch the Marching Band Competition.

By the time we reached the stadium, it was already 5pm. We were so afraid before that that we would be greeted by the people there that the competition was already over. We were so relieved that just as we found our seats just beside the grandstand, someone made an announcement, greeting the audience and introducing the adjudicators. The competition had just begun. The performance by all the bands were spectacular. It is a pity that I did not bring my video camera along. Luckily, I had my digital camera that had recording function with me and I managed to record down some of their displays. The quality would of course be not as clear. I reached home at 9 plus last night after watching the competition.

Friday was just a normal day in school. The only thing that is significant about it is that it is the first time I have done so badly for my Additional Mathematics test. I scored a mere 10/30. I hope that this will serve as a wake up call for me to start revising for the mid-year exams that will begin on 10 May.

The lunchtime concert was quite a good performance although it was not really well done. It can be considered a success despite all the factors that went against it. I really want to thank all those performers who have put in so much for the performance.

Band practice started off with Mrs Chua working with the brasses. The woodwinds had to go for sectional to work on The Merry Widow and I had to take the clarinet section. I gave up after teaching for 40 minutes because it was really too taxing on my part. The experience of teaching them the correct style and articulation is enough to stop anyone from willingly taking the section.

My hardship paid off when Mrs Chua went through the piece with us. The clarinets were able to play something close to her expectations, making some minor changes here and there. However, we only managed to work on less than half of the whole piece. I then had a meeting that ended at around 9pm.

Life is becoming worse and worse for me. Today, my phone turned its back on me and sort of stopped functioning. There is a jammed button there is nothing I can do about it. All I can hope for is for the problem to be resolved on its own. What I can use my phone for now is only to see who is calling, and to check the time. Other than that, my phone is useless. I guess I will have to switch back to my 3310 if the problem isn't resolved.

I am getting quite tired and I think I'm going to take a nap before completing my Mathematics homework and starting to study for the Chinese test tomorrow.

Anyway, while I was bathing tonight, I suddenly remembered that there is only about 15 weeks to the prelims. If I count every subject I take as a subject, I will have about one and a half weeks to study for each subject. The fact is worrying me because I would only have one and a half weeks to revise the syllabus meant to be learnt over a course of one and a half years, and I will not start revising from today.

We will be having a lunchtime concert tomorrow and I'm praying that it will not go wrong.

The lesson was a little better than the last one. This time, I managed to do a few questions by myself, at a faster pace than the last lesson when I was practically struggling even to copy the answers. Today's session was more on revision, and I think it plays a very important role in helping me in this week's Additional Mathematics revision test.

However, what I am more worried about now is not whether I am going to score well for the tests or whether I can finish my homework but whether I can start preparing for the mid-year examinations and the 'O' level Chinese paper I am going to sit for this coming May. I suddenly realised how close it is to May already and I am still spending an average of 3 hours on the computer each day doing quite meaningless things. I better start to stop myself from sitting in front of the computer.

After my tuition and lunch, I went back to sleep, and awoke only at 6pm. Hopefully, I would be able to finish all the homework that I have by tonight and still be refreshed when I wake up tomorrow morning. Tomorrow will be yet another long day, similar to the past 2 Mondays.

I shall stop here and begin on my homework soon.

Anyway, I am drained of almost all my energy today. I woke up at around half past 8 and went swimming at Bedok Swimming Complex after having a very light breakfast. It is one of the very first time I did warm-up exercise before I went into the pool. It is quite amazing that I can still fit into my swimming trunks after more than a year of not wearing them.

After swimming the first lab, I was quite exhausted and breathless. I even forgot to breathe when I surfaced. What is the point of surfacing when I don't take in air? After about 4 laps of getting used to swimming, I started a continuous swim of 10 laps using breaststroke. After that, I took a short break before continuing with 12 laps of alternating breaststroke and freestyle. I could feel the strain of my arms after the 12 laps. I swam my last 2 laps before getting out of the pool at around 10.30am. I think that it is quite lousy of me to spend 1 hour swimming so little.

I was so tired after the swim that I did not have the energy to chew on the tuna sandwich that I very much wanted to eat. Somehow, I managed to finish it while waiting for my father to bring me home.

I ended up at my grandmother's house instead. I finally get to see my cute little dog after 2 weeks. I have not been to my grandmother's house for the past 2 weeks because I had tuition almost every night and I stayed back in school till quite late for the remaining nights. I think that cute little dog is very happy to see me after such a long time. His fur seems to be quite a bit longer then when I last saw him, and he is much more fluffier. My grandmother made me a bowl of bee hoon to bring home before I left.

After settling down at home, I had to get my hair cut because it was getting a little too long. After I came home, I had another bath, ate my lunch and took a short nap before my piano lesson. I can imagine how my piano teacher must have felt when she listened to my playing. I could not get the scales right, and all my exam pieces were filled with mistakes. That comes from the lack of practising my piano for the past 2 weeks.

After that, I went for my tuition where I did nothing much but one revision exercise from the Additional Mathematics textbook. Then, my father drove me to Kallang MRT station where I met Torrance to go to her church's Easter service. We had then to walk to the Indoor stadium because the queue for the shuttle bus was too long. Upon reaching the Indoor stadium, we had to stand outside for more than half an hour before we were finally let in. From where I was sitting, I could see nothing more than a screen that had its images laterally inverted. The service was quite good on the whole.

After the service, we walked to the nearby Burger King to eat. We were quite lucky to have caught a shuttle bus to the MRT station. It was already more than an hour after the service ended and I thought that we would have to either take a public bus or walk to the MRT station.

Now, I'm back home sitting in front of the computer again. I'm planning to sleep by 1am.

I woke up at 7.50am this morning due to some unknown reason. I had only had a cup of milo, and a bath before leaving for Tampines interchange where I met Salome to go to her church. The service was just a little shorter than expected, ending at around 11.40am. I then went to Bugis to meet those who were going for the so called "band outing". By the time I reached there, I was already 20 minutes late. Anyway, they have seem to have just found seats and settled down.

After that, we went to Sultan Plaza to bowl. I did not bowl today because I did not feel like bowling, I did not want to show off my lousy score, I did not have the money, and I was feeling very tired. These are some of the more interesting reasons I have. I must say that Vincent is a very good bowler. I should learn some tricks from him. After one game, we were chased out of the bowling alley because they were holding a tournament.

We then went back to Bugis Junction where we spent more than an hour trying to get our pictures taken at those machines that sort of "cheat" us of our money. After that, some of us went to McDonald's to eat before going to Muji to look at some interesting things before going back to take more pictures. I think the gravity activation pen at Muji is really a very interesting device. Too bad it costs $33 or I would have bought it. Wei Theng actually left his bag at McDonald's and did not realise that his bag was not with him until Ting Ting asked him where his bag was. Up till that point, he was still wondering whether he had brought his bag out or not. I finally find someone who is as forgetful as me.

By the time we left Bugis, it was already 8.30pm, at least 12 hours after I left home. I was getting more and more exhausted already. I had quite a normal dinner at home before turning to the television and then, to the computer.

Tomorrow will be another day without CCA. I have decided to go swimming in the morning. It has been at least a year since I last went swimming and I'm wondering if I have forgotten how to swim. After that I will be having my piano lesson, and then, my tuition lesson. After that, I would either be going to City Harvest's Easter service at the Kallang Indoor stadium or the Nan Yang Polytechnic Auditorium for a performance put up by Damai Secondary. I shall decide on which to go for tomorrow.

Of course, apart from all those activities, I will have to find some time to finish my Chinese composition and Mathematics homework. If I'm not wrong, I also have some Physics homework from the textbook, which I have left in my locker. Besides all these schoolwork, I will also have to practice the piano. I have not touched my piano for at least a week already. It is about time that I started familiarising myself with my piano before it is too late.

I shall stop here for tonight.

The Literature test today was rather easy on the whole. I have to thank my tutor for this because he actually showed me a workbook for "I'm the King of the Castle" yesterday which had quite a fair bit of "fill in the blanks" questions-the main kind of question asked for today's test. Although there were still quite a number of questions I did not know how to answer, I still feel that the worksheet has been a whole lot of help.

I was sort of dreamy during lessons today. It must most probably be the result of not having enough rest. Despite that, I played street soccer with my classmates during first recess. If I'm not wrong, it is the first time I have ever scored while playing street soccer during recess.

After recess, things started to go a little rougher. For no apparent reason, I had a headache. I have not had one for years and I did not know that headaches could be so irritating and indescribable. I couldn't concentrate during the lessons which followed. During Chinese lesson, we were made to write a composition based on a newspaper article reporting that a 16 year old girl having as much as 50 sex partners. For the rest of the 40 minutes, I could not even come up with a page filled with words. I wonder how I am going to pass my 'O' level Chinese if I continue at this rate.

After school, I went to band room. I did not do much there and I started to get bored. In the end, I only helped Wang Zi with Passacaglia and Fuge in C minor and went to the canteen with him to get some refreshments. Hong Wei, Jun Long, Huai Ping, Vincent and I managed to play some "soccer" before some of them went home. I managed to borrow a clarinet and play part of the pieces we are working on but I got bored after some time.

I went to the McDonald's at White Sands to have a snack before going home for dinner. In the process, I realised that I am very pathetic as compared to some other people. I shall not elaborate much on this because it has to be kept a low profile. I hope to improve on this aspect after the 'O' levels.

I have to say that I like my angel very much. I have received a box of chocolates from her. Thanks a million. For those who think I am writing in a different language, we are playing the "angel-mortal" game where the angel gives some things to their mortal, and the mortal does not know who the angel is.

I know tomorrow is a public holiday but I will have to sleep soon so that I can catch up on some sleep. I am already quite tired now.

School started off like any other day, but there are some things I would like to bring up. I got back my English common test paper yesterday and I was very shocked to see that I have scored 21/30 for the expository composition. I am very satisfied with the score because I wrote slightly less than a page, and I did not even do the practice composition that was given to us. During Chinese lesson today, our tests papers were returned to us and I scored 36/50. Maybe I should study harder next time and get an A1. English lesson was rather boring. We had to listen to some people taking their orals and grade them. Mr Peach released us after the bell rang for assembly and resulted in us having to stay back after assembly for the second time. I don't blame him because I am also sometimes late for his lesson, but I'm quite mad with Mr Lim for being so sarcastic. I actually cursed so loudly that I think some teachers heard me shouting when I responded to his announcement that my class has to stay back after assembly.

Assembly was sort of the best thing of the day. We were entertained by the Singapore Chinese Orchestra. Their playing was very good, except for the part where the orchestra was conducted by the school's Chinese orchestra conductor. I have also come to a conclusion that some people just cannot appreciate music.

After assembly I had to attend a meeting regarding the National Day celebration. It was mostly things that I already knew. The meeting lasted for at least half an hour, with Mr Lee briefing us on the whole parade procedure. The only reason why I dreaded being in the meeting is that they switched on the air conditioner that was at the other corner of the room and the room was so stuffy. I wonder why he don't feel the heat.

That's enough for today. I still have to finish revising for the Literature test and start on my Mathematics homework due tomorrow.

I'm still feeling a little troubled.

Tomorrow will be another long day. It's pushing me to my limits. My brain is no longer functioning properly due to the lack of rest it is getting.

I am feeling very troubled, lost, disappointed, sad, depressed, tired and hopeless.

strangely enough, after almost 2 days of feeling depressed for no apparent reason, I felt so light-hearted the moment I stepped into school that I felt that it was necessary to hide my happiness. I wonder if it is because I miss school so much that I am feeling this way.

It is already close to 11pm and I still have my Mathematics homework, which is due today to start on and some other important things to do. I'll try to continue on the music lesson tomorrow. Having tuition till 9.45pm is tiring, and it will be even more tiring to have tuition till 9.30pm for the next two days.

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Tomorrow will be another long day for me. I'll be back home only at around 10pm. Hopefully I can catch enough sleep tonight for me to last that long for tomorrow and Tuesday, where I will be having my 2.4Km test and activities laid up till 9.30pm.

Good luck to everyone who has Chinese test tomorrow.

It's 04 04 04 today. 4th April 2004.

I still don't feel right today. I woke up at 11am this morning and went for my tuition which started at 11.30am. The class is once again filled to the brim. If only I have had slept earlier last night, I could have went there earlier and get a better seat. I think my brain is dying already. Throughout the whole one and a half hours, I could not even solve one of the questions. I can even make mistakes such as changing the minus sign to a plus sign. This can not go on or I will fail every single subject in the Mid Year Examinations.

When I boarded the bus to go home, it started to pour very heavily. I did not even bother to run across the road I had to cross before reaching my block. I just walked in the rain as if I was holding an umbrella. This is the first time the rain didn't seem to bother me.

I had to go to the market to get bread for my breakfast or lunch because I did not want to eat rice. I went to the confectionery that was near McDonald's but it was already taken over by another shop. I went to the second confectionery I knew of, but it had also closed down and it was selling shoes. Just my luck. Anyway, I managed to find a minimart selling bread. I think It has been years since I last walked into the market and I am at least 2 years behind. The market will be undergoing a major renovation and a temporary market will be set up in a few months time.

After eating the bread I bought with 3 eggs, I went with my family to Marine Parade Library. I was feeling sleepy so I decided to sleep in the car while the rest of them went to borrow books. After that, we went to Parkway Parade to buy some things. My father bought my sister got a watch that cost $78. I am still dreaming for a laptop, but I guess I'll ask for that after my 'O' levels because I don't wish to have another thing tempting me to neglect my studies.

I reached home at about 5.30pm, and from then, I have been sitting in front of the computer till now. I will have to start doing my Mathematics homework and revising for my Chinese test after I have finished this entry.

I'll have to go soon but I'll try to continue tonight.

I'm not feeling too alright at the moment.

I skipped all the lessons after Social Studies today because I had to go to the Science Centre for a briefing for the Tan Kah Kee Young Inventors Award. It was totally boring. They sort of made us listen to someone talking about intellectual property. I think it is a waste of time. Anyway, It is much better than staying in school, listening to the teachers put the textbook into words.

Tomorrow I will have to skip band because of that prize presentation. I wonder what will happen during band practice.

It's getting late now and I better get some rest.

Just as I thought I could finally have a day where I can come home earlier, have some rest and relax a little, I am now hoping so much that I have arranged for a tuition session tonight. I would rather tire myself even more than to listen to the endless things my father has to say. It seems as though everything I do is never right in his eyes. I have had my fair share of studying for tests and going for tuition classes for this week already. The least I deserve is some time to relax a little, in peace.

School started off with the Geography test. The first question was already enough to get brains cracking-"Define a population pyramid". This test is slightly different from the rest in a sense that the mark allocations are rather little. The maximum marks for a sub-question is only 4 marks. For the previous tests, the maximum mark was around 6 to 8. I did not have sufficient time to complete the paper. Lessons followed as per normal. There is nothing much that I want to bring up.

Today I took the tuba section for sectional. On the whole, I think that it has been rather unproductive. Always, there will be someone playing the wrong thing and we will go back to the beginning again. I guess it is the same for every other section. It has been a long time since I took a section that can get everything close to perfect, doing the impossible.

I got back my Chemistry test paper and Mathematics test paper today. Both were quite a disappointment. I scored 33/40 for Chemistry and 19.5/30 for Mathematics. Is this the result of being too relaxed or am I too stressed up? I suppose I should spend less time on the computer, rest more, and study more.

I have just discovered today, that my new seat in class is actually the same as somebody's seat. I think it is quite a coincidence to be at the same seat, but maybe it is only a temporary seat. I have no idea what I am saying here.

My life is now orbiting round a ever-tightening circle. Nothing seems to matter much to me anymore, at least not for more than a few hours. I can have something go very wrong and still continue as though it has not happened at all as long as I am no longer doing something related to the problem.

I am going to end with my short-term target, which is to sleep by 10pm tonight.