The most memorable thing I did during the March holiday was going to Pulau Ubin to cycle with the ex-ahbanders. It was very fun, other than the frustration of having to stick to the side of the road on so many occasions because of the vans. It was the first time I went there and other than the unfriendly boatman who made us pay for the extra 2 seats that we did not manage to fill, and the store holders who inflicted so much pressure on us that it was hard for us to decide where to go to, the trip was quite enjoyable. I have uploaded the pictures to my computer, so if any of you wants the pictures, you can ask me for them when I'm online.
On the Monday during the school holiday, I played mahjong at my junior's friend's house from 12 am to 6 am. It was quite fun, but I almost died the next day. I had sectional in the morning and then spring cleaning in the afternoon. I was very surprised that the spring cleaning actually made me feel more awake and prevented me from falling asleep rather than making me feel more tired and worn out.
As for the rest of the holiday, I cannot really remember what happened. I skipped almost the whole 2 days of orientation meant more for the second intakes. I did not mean to skip it, but after looking at how organised the people organising the second orientation were, I felt that it would be better if I missed all the fun that there will be.
Only 16 more days to ahband's SYF. I wonder how they are doing. I definitely hope that the will get a gold, but it would be meaningless if they get it when they do not really have the desire to get it. Over the weekend, I realised that it is very meaningless for one to achieve a goal not set by oneself. I would definitely not be happy even if I get the top in class if my goal is not that, and it would be even more meaningless to me if I did not even have a goal at all.
Anyway, it is official that today shall be my last day of slacking. I have had more than enough of that. From tomorrow onwards, I am going to make sure that I do all my tutorials and assignments and make an effort to do some revision on my own and lastly, to do more self practice in band room and practice my piano at home. I think that it is quite a lot to ask that of myself, but it is possible to do it and I will try my best to stick to it.
It feel a little weird to type so much after having not update a proper entry for such a long time, so I shall stop here.
I think I should try resting. So much for a full day off, I still don't get the rest that I need.
I guess my expectation for the band is very high, especially for the clarinet section. I was rather disappointed with the clarinet section at first, but I made it that I had expected too much out of them.
School resumed yesterday and I don't remember dreading going to school as much as I dreaded going to school yesterday. Maybe I still cannot fit into the school. I don't feel much sense of belonging although there are a few people whom I can talk to with ease.
I couldn't concentrate for most of yesterday. Band practice was quite a disaster for me. I found myself looking at the wrong line and playing the wrong things and even not coming in when I am supposed to. I think that was the worst band practice I have ever had in my life. Playing the wrong thing is definitely worse than getting lost while sight reading a piece of music.
I have nothing much to say right now. All the best to those who are getting their 'A' level results tomorrow.
