Anyway, spent quite some time venturing into places I have not been to for quite some time. I miss going for band practices. My playing has deproved till I feel tortured just listening to myself play. Hard to believe, but true. So much for not practising much for a period of slightly less than 2 months.

Finally the prelim results will be known to us. I wonder what my reaction will be when I see my results. Frankly, I don't even feel like I have spent effort preparing for the preliminary examinations and it's over. Somebody told me on Monday that there was only 40 days left to the real thing. 40 days. That's very soon but still I don't feel the urgency to start doing what I should be doing. I don't understand why I cannot bring myself to do it. I hope things will start getting better after I see my lousy grades. Hopefully I can start pushing myself to do the work that I have been missing all this while.

I can't imagine what more there is after seeing 18 years (I don't realise I am that old) of life. Maybe I have seen enough of the bad things and the better but not badder things will start coming. I see there are still some things to hope for.

My best wishes to everyone in everything.

I want my own clarinet but that has to wait till December or I'll not study. So many things I want to do after the A levels. I can't wait for it to over but yet can't stop wishing that the A levels never had to come. Well, who am I to complain about it? It was me who wanted to go to Junior College in the first place.

Anyway, I just found out that I can start a polishing shop if everything goes wrong. Maybe it will be the next "The Band World", but there there must be an additional music school under it. Nice thought. All the best to Qiyan for her flute examination tomorrow!