Anyway, spent quite some time venturing into places I have not been to for quite some time. I miss going for band practices. My playing has deproved till I feel tortured just listening to myself play. Hard to believe, but true. So much for not practising much for a period of slightly less than 2 months.

Finally the prelim results will be known to us. I wonder what my reaction will be when I see my results. Frankly, I don't even feel like I have spent effort preparing for the preliminary examinations and it's over. Somebody told me on Monday that there was only 40 days left to the real thing. 40 days. That's very soon but still I don't feel the urgency to start doing what I should be doing. I don't understand why I cannot bring myself to do it. I hope things will start getting better after I see my lousy grades. Hopefully I can start pushing myself to do the work that I have been missing all this while.

I can't imagine what more there is after seeing 18 years (I don't realise I am that old) of life. Maybe I have seen enough of the bad things and the better but not badder things will start coming. I see there are still some things to hope for.

My best wishes to everyone in everything.