I think I would rather be alone than to be with the opposition so that I can save my energies on more meaningful things that I want to accomplish. In fact, a lot of things do not matter to me anymore. There is nothing that will please everyone. As long as I am pleased, only a few people shall matter.

I have been having rather good food lately. I do spend significantly more on food, but sometimes the food just comes. The irony is that those places where I expect to get food of higher quality, the food fails to satisfy, and it is at the most unexpected places, (including places where there is no sale of food) where good food comes.

I lack sleep, but I believe there are people who need a good rest more than I do.

I need earplugs to drop from the sky. I need the vibration to be of the right size and frequency. It is such a torture. I wish I have less time for now. Chuck the extra time away and use it when I need it more. I want to sell my time.

So many blanks around, but for me, it's just one enormous vacuum, maybe sucking whatever that is left of me. I hate the stupid anything and whatever for it's name.

I want to be almost shut out. Just a small slit at the right place would be enough.