Saturday's concert was quite a let down. I felt that surely, we played at a level way below what we were capable of. Despite this, the concert was a great one. I'm only slightly disappointed that it was not our best performance. It is now that I understand what it means to just stop at the point where things are best so that they can be kept in memory and not be spoilt when it is redone in a way not exceeding the beauty of the best time. So many aspects of my life can be reflected upon those words.
What will things turn up to be like tomorrow? I fear the approach of tomorrow. I have no goal to achieve and no direction to head towards. Everything I do is meaningless. I just eat, sleep and do as I am told. I am either disconnected with the world or just a tool to be used to make the lives of others easier. Other than that, there is nothing more to what I am.
I don't have much to say. Anyway, it will always be the same few people reading what I type in here. I wonder why I even bother posting all these on the web. Just to make myself more vulnerable?
