I can't seem to get a control of my mind now. It just keeps wondering. I guess nothing is fixed in this world now. Everything can be argued, and the person with the best argument wins. You can say whatever you want, for I don't really care much anymore. I'm beginning to lose intrest in the things that are going on. I cannot be bothered to fight or come up with a better argument anymore. I tired of all these. It is too much for me to take.

It does not really matter anymore, what others think because I don't care. Since it is impossible to please everyone. Not many people show true appreciation and gratitude for the things that have been done for them. Probably it does not pay to be kind, considerate or helpful anymore and being selfish is the only way. Just from today, I have observed that many people do not spare a thought for others. This includes myself as well and I'm not going to give any excuse for having not spared a thought for everyone. Maybe the period for civics and moral education should be removed from timetables. All of those do not seem to work. So many people blatantly jump queues, pretend to be ignorant, smoke in non-smoking areas, litter on the ground, pee in the lifts, and the list never ends. I should begin to be less helpful and more selfish. This is the only way my life won't get affected by others.

I don't think I will want to sleep tonight. My mind will not stop wondering. I am coming back to believing that not to live is better than to live. I shall not explain, probably because I cannot be bothered to anymore. Looks like I'm learning fast. I can't be bothered to type any more either.