Monday, July 04, 2005
I have realised for quite some time that I have become very easily irritatable and less bothered to go the extra mile. I am sick of having to go through the same things over and over again, repeating myself so many times that even I get sick of it. I have lost a lot of patience. The only reason I can come up with is that too many times, I have done so much but it was never appreciated. I am really losing heart in doing whatever I am doing. I don't think I am giving my fullest anymore, other than playing the bass clarinet. Sometimes I feel that being alone is still the best option. I am quite glad that my tone on the Selmer bass clarinet is improving. I hope that by Thursday, I would be able to produce a sound that is as good as a buffet sound. My concert tickets are still unsold. I have only torn out 2 tickets up till now. Frankly speaking, I am rather disappointed (I mean very disappointed) about that, especially when there are more people who are not band members confirming that they will attend the concert.
I have no mood to carry on writing.
ChenghuaT blogged on 7/04/2005 08:44:00 pm
