Monday, September 08, 2008
I feel as though I have been almost completely eradicated from two places I used be deeply rooted in and it has been quite difficult for me to come to face what seems to me as the reality. Without much warning, my role has changed drastically. I may not be a person who likes changes, but these unprecedented changes are like a big bitter pill to swallow and this pill is unlikely to even bring any benefit. I am still clinging on to whatever there is remaining with all that I have but I don't know how long more I will last hanging on this line nor how much further it can stretch before it finally becomes two. Anyway, I have this feeling that I'm becoming more redundant by the second and it is really tempting me to let go and start falling into what might be a bottomless pit. Apart from rehearsals where I spend time doing something I enjoy, there isn't much to look forward to any more. Not even to the activity I used to look forward to so much every night that I would do everything I could to get home earlier. The times have changed and no, there is not the slightest hint that anything, if anything at all, would revert back to the good old way it used to be. Not any more.
ChenghuaT blogged on 9/08/2008 11:57:00 pm
